Weird New View...

So normally I'm not all that moved by much. Normally I can take things in stride. I can watch or witness something and come away from as the same person I went into it with. Today was an exception. Today I watched my roommate graduate college. I honestly didn't think it was that big of a deal. I mean, it was someone else's day, someone else's accomplishment, and someone else's moment. As I sat up in the stands, and watched not only him, but also countless others see their labor come to fruition, I found myself motivated. You would think the fact that I'm IN college, the fact that I've wasted several years of my life dicking off, not really pressing forward in academia, and generally just "spinning my wheels" when it comes to academic achievement would be enough motivation. The feeling or sensation isn't really something that I'm capable of, or even comfortable describing. I will say this, I want to be one of those people. I want to don the faggy cap and gown. I want too many pictures taken. I want to be the source of pride for my family and friends. I want to know that there was a reason that I tortured myself, stayed up too late studying, ignored social opportunities, and got myself in ungodly debt.

Again, it really isn't my style to get a hard on over something that I normally wouldn't think was too big of a deal. Today was just...today was just different.

By the way, I don't especially like...actually I can't f'n stand Oasis, but this is boss.


**Edit: Follow Up From XM Post- About 6 hours after I posted my little whine-fest about XM I had an email in my inbox. It seems that the fucker finally shipped. Jesus.